Discontentment creeps into our hearts when we buy into the idea that God owes us a life path with ease. As my husband and I embarked on our new journey in 2020, I received calls about family members and friends expecting a child. Sadly, some of the pregnancies were unwanted, and the mother questioned if she would see the pregnancy through. Upon hearing this news, my already broken heart cried out in anguish. I was infuriated. How could God, the one I love deeply, whom I sacrificed my career to follow, and lost friends over being too radical; how could He do this to me? Whether aware of it or not, I had bought into the idea that being a follower of Christ meant my life would be free of struggles. 

Discontentment found a door into my heart; its food was my anger and bitterness. It wasn't until I decided to saturate myself in the things of God that I saw how deep it was growing. As I began to dive deeper into studying the bible and prayer, God began shifting my focus from comparing my life to others to finding my life in Him. I began to find joy in the life that God has called me to. My prayers also changed from praying away my pain to "Lord, while I'm in this season, what would you have me to do?"  Reiterating my closing remarks in Day 1, "my circumstances didn't change, but my response to it did."